Warning: Just Ranting..
I had a very depressing night last night. I got into a huge fight with my boyfriend’s mom and it wasn’t even my fault. She said I was wasting my life by going back to school after I finish the program I’m in Law and security now, but I realized that I don’t really like the jobs that are available when I get out of school.. I thought it through and I have other programs in mind. I was really offended when she said that because my whole family are all strong believers in going to school to find my perfect career. And then I had cake and popcorn. Even today as a write this and I still feel like shit I ate a cinnamon bun. And now I feel even worse because I’m eating so badly. I don’t think I’ve ever really felt this sad. My boyfriend wants to do a job that I know he is above. He needs to be in a job where he can get promoted. Plus I hate my job (I am only a summer student though so I have to live with it) and my coworker. My friends kinda screwed me over and I feel like I really have no one around me to hang out with. Anyways I’m just venting and being depressed and having a super hard time dieting. I actually like working out. I feel like it gives me a release. But I ALWAYS turn to food when I feel bad. So now I’ve pigged out and I feel even worse. I’m sorry if I sound kinda crazy and I’m rambling on but I just feel like shit and I’m letting all my buddies know about it. Somehow I know you sistas and mistas will all work together and make me feel a little bit better.
love kz.
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It’s okay to rant - you don’t sound crazy at all. Your buddies are here for you, and I’d like to be your buddy too
It’s so sad that your boyfriend’s mom feels that way. You should be extra PROUD of yourself for going to school and for working so hard. I wouldn’t listen to her - I’d keep to your goals and go after what you want. I do the same thing whenever I’ve hurt - I’ve always turned to food for comfort. But don’t be too hard on yourself. You can get back on track.
I hope your day gets better, girl! Hang in there!
we all have those days…i am sorry about what is going on….you have to do what is best for you…you never know what the future holds….
She probably has issues of her own. Maybe she never got to (but wanted to) go to school. Maybe she settled for a job she didn’t enjoy. Who knows what her motive was for saying that, but you need to do what you feel is best for you!
Can’t help much on the emotional eating… I still turn that way most of the time… once in a while I can get away with a glass of ice water and a piece of gum, blogging, or cranking a good tune… but I mainly still am under the control of my food and not vice versa.
I hope you work things out girl. It’s nice now and then to listen to older people for guidance but if what they say doesn’t sound right for you then don’t do it. I’ve done a couple of things that people said I should do and later regretted it. I should have went with my gut. Just tell her you heard her, you considered it, but you are doing things your way. It’s not like you and your boyfriend are married so what does it matter to her anyway. Geeze. Good luck with your choices. And do your best to stay on your food plan. You will feel better that you did. Not to mention that the junk you are eating could be effecting your mood. Hugs to you girl.